05. Close to the Knives - David Wojnarowicz
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Donuts Are Like Dexter - Empty Inside.
Welcome to my not so humble abode.
Man you know I'm seriously suffering from deprivation symptoms. All my shows are on hiatus because of the blasted Winter Olympics until January, so I'm rewatching Dexter and Gossip Girl. :/
The best bit is, school will have started by then, so WTF man.
So wow my love for Ugly Betty has totally been rekindled. Oh man I really love Marc. And mean old Willie. (:
But bleh most of the people I know won't have a clanking clue who they are so I shall stop blabbing.
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i just realized that everyone's fixated on the past. like, obsessed with it. everyday when we talk to people, we go 'oh hey remember what we did yesterday?' and we'll laugh about some funny thing we did in the past. no one ever goes 'oh hey guess what we'll do tomorrow' and laugh for the funny things that will no doubt happen, whether you want them to or not.
i was watching flashforward the other day, and all the characters' lives were being shaped by the visions that they experienced - they're either trying to, or trying not to, take actions that will cause what they saw to come true.
and in a sense, what people everyday are doing is like the reverse of a flashforward. sometimes we hold on to the past because they remind us of a happier time, a time where everything was, at least, not as bad as things are today. but even if your past was a terrible one, or a awesome one, you can't go back. i'm not saying it's not important; your past, every person, every choice shapes you. but you don't have to try so hard to cling on to every last bit of it.
some people forgive, some people don't.
but no one forgets.
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OH GREAT.
IT'S BEEN A WHOLE DAY AND I HAVEN'T DONE A SINGLE THING FOR CAP.
(ohshitohno i'm so screwed!!)
My brain juices are so not flowing today.
I feel so dumb.
"People fake a lot of human reactions, but I feel like I fake them all."
- Dexter.
Labels: musing, whining
8:30 PM